Memories - they can sometimes become vague and foggy and there are times when they disappear altogether.
Therefore, because there are many things I don't want to lose track of, I will record everything in here for the sake of those moments that should not be forgotten

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Choice is an illusion, created between those with power, and those without.

This is the nature of the universe.

We struggle against it, we fight to deny it, but it is of course pretense, it is a lie.

Beneath our poised appearance, the truth is we are completely out of control.

Causality. There is no escape from it, we are forever slaves to it.

Our only hope, our only peace is to understand it, to understand the "why".

"Why" is what separates us from them, you from me.

`Why' is the only real social power, without it we are powerless.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Low Self Esteem?

God help you if you are an ugly girl,
‘course too pretty is also your doom,
‘cause everyone harbors a secret hatred for the prettiest girl in the room.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Dear Diary,

I don't know what to make of people anymore.
I may had put on a smile and said i'm okay for the hundredth time.

And it all okay now. Everything is set at the place i once always knew they are in the way they should be. But i blindly just follow on my foolish faith thinking if the earth can spin in one direction~ they would spin the other if u walk backards~

Seriously, i guess i do have that dark nature residing in me. I probably buried it somewhere.
It's time to take off the restraining device. As what i had said before~ i was born good~ Life just FUCKed Me

My birthday is just coming round the corner, so if you don't hear from me, it just means i'm not celebrating.

HELL NO I AIN'T. MY HP WILL BE OFF SO YOU CAN FORGET ABT COAXING ME~!!!

CYA peeps

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Read This!

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his class on the problem science has with God, the Almighty. He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand.


Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Professor: Is God ALL-POWERFUL?
Student: Yes.
Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is this God good then? Hmmm?

Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, Young Fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Professor: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From… God…
Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Professor: So who created evil?


Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who created them?

Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son. Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student: No, sir.
Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.


Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student: No, sir. There isn’t.
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light… But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?



Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of Duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the Opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the Opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)


Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an ongoing endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class was in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
(The class broke out into laughter.)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student: That is it sir. Exactly!
The link between Man and God is faith.That is all that keeps things alive and moving.


That student was Albert Einstein.

Sometimes, we should stop rationalizing things and just have faith

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

i didn't know it was love when i first saw u
but fate took a twisted turn
and i smiled...
cos i fallen in love with you... as u had to me...
the feel was just so right
and everyone feels the same way
So tell me...
how could all these be not real...

Sunday, March 14, 2010


It came to me when I tried to classify our species and I realized that we're not actually mammals.
Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but we humans do not.
We move to an area and We multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way we can survive is to spread to another area.
There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern.
Do you know what it is?
A virus.
Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet.
We're a plague and there is no cure

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Disappointment

Do you believe you're fighting for something?
Can you tell me what it is?
Do you even know?
Is it freedom? Or truth? Perhaps peace?
Yes? No?
Illusions.. Vagaries of perception.
The temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose.
And all of them as artificial as love itself, although only a human mind could invent something as insipid as love.

It's pointless

Because i choose to

Monday, March 8, 2010

Wishlist

Everybody asking me about my bday
No, i never thought of celebrating
if u are in the mood, do get me something practical like the below mentioned :
*32" samsung LCD TV
*Core 2 Quad with 4gb, 500 gb sata HDD, 512mb Graphic card, 22 inch LCD monitor, XP/Vista/Win7 ready
*IMac, Quad core specs will do (30" with VM Fusion Please!)
* MacPro will be nice too (17" and c/w VM Fusion Please!)
* NAS (Network Access Storage) Up to 4TB memory
*PS3
*Xbox360
*Wii
*IPhone 4Gs
*500 Gb portable HDD
*LV Brooklyn GM
* 2 Condominiums (one on the east side, one on the west)
* Lambourgini would be nice
* Ferrari would be even better
* Porsche i can live with it
* Skyline i can just make do with it
*$10,000 red packet
PS - No cakes alloweD (Except from Ms Mango) :D
I know what i'm Wishing for~
I know~
It's sinful~
but hey i'm being honest~

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Maybe one day i'll disappear
And the whole world thought it was nothing
Hey, they all thought i would be just somewhere else
That i would die and no one would remember me the way i was
I would just do that
Because i know, no one would have noticed

Thursday, March 4, 2010



I heard the sound of your crying on my bed that day...
and then i know it's set to that frequency
that instantly breaks my heart



Day 2
Craves

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Dear diary,


I made it through the day
I must have said " I'm fine. Thanks"
Countless times. And i didn't mean it once..
But no one noticed.
When someone asks " How are you "
They really don't want an answer..
Day 1 Reset
No sticks
Thanks for reminding

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Only us knows

This is where we always meet in our dreams
I'm here while i'm waiting...