It's that time of the year again... Happy Christmas to meself...

When you close your eyes and look at the World,
what do you see?

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.

I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.

It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.

But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away....

Don’t wish me happiness.
I don’t expect to be happy all the time…
It’s gotten beyond that somehow.
Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor.
I will need them all.

The Earth is large.
Large enough that you think you can hide from anything.
From Fate.
From God.
If only you found a place far enough away.
So you run.
To the edge of the Earth.
Where all is safe again.
Quiet, and warm.
The solace of salt air.
The peace of danger left behind.
The luxury of grief.
And maybe, for a moment, you believe you have escaped.

I love the flowers

trees, animals, sea,

sky, earth, clouds,

But only humans..... only humans are the only species that crave the flesh of others to fufill their desires... they did it not for hunger nor for survival... they are the most complicated species.... they kill not to gather food... they cut down trees and print it on paper saying "save the trees"... There is one more organism that is similar to that trait.... a virus...

I detest human... and in their capacity for evil.... they are like the parasites of the our planet...

2011.2011

In my body,

where the shame gland should be,

there is a second awesome gland.

Where has my heart gone?

An uneven trade for the real world.

1.11.11

Barney~ You're being awesome~

Friend A : "Did you fall on your back?"

Me : "No. i attacked the floor"

Friend A : "With your back?"

Me : "I'm freaking talented!"

Friend A : "@%^$@#@!!!"

ROFLLLLLLLLLL

This
happens
to
everyone
at
least
once.

Mornings...

Sweet

Cuddle

Soft

Hands

Moments

Warm

Smooth

Hearts

Mesmerizing

Pillows

:)

After all this time,

after being by your side and always looking after you,

I failed to make a place for myself deep within your heart.

I just think that some things are meant to be

broken,

imperfect,

chaotic.

It’s the universe’s way of providing contrast, you know?

There have to be a few holes in the road.

It’s how life is.

People can have lovers..they can have friends..they can be together..but when you think about it..you'll see that originally..we're "alone"

Every morning i get up and put on a fake smile...
but what if one morning i didn't?
Would anyone notice?

I have lost faith in human perfectibility.
I think that human exertion will have no appreciable effect upon humanity.
Despite spending 6000 years of progress, Humans is now only more active...not more happy...nor more wise than he was 6000 years ago.

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason.
Some are bigger like when we let down a friend.
Some of us escape pain and regret by making the right choice.
Some of us have little time for regret because we’re looking forward.
Sometimes we have to fight to come to turn to forget the past and sometimes we bury our regret and promise to change our ways.
But our biggest regrets are not from the things we did but from the things we didn’t do, didn’t say that could save someone we care about... especially when we can see the dark storm decided their way.

If you asked me now who I am, the only answer I could give with any certainty would be my name. For the rest, my loves, my hates, down even to my deepest desires, I can no longer say whether these emotions are my own or stolen from those I once so desperately wished to be.