Memories - they can sometimes become vague and foggy and there are times when they disappear altogether.
Therefore, because there are many things I don't want to lose track of, I will record everything in here for the sake of those moments that should not be forgotten

Thursday, May 5, 2011

The Pain Of Being Alone...Is Completely Out Of This World, Isn't It?

Wha... what sad eyes... very... lonely eyes...
Him... and a monster...
Just like me...
I loathed everyone...
I couldn't understand who I was or why I existed as a hated being...
... Ever since then, their eyes seemed colder than ever...
... It was so painful...
But...
Now I have people who acknowledge me... That's why I... I can be unconcerned about being possessed or treated coldly by them...
Because... I'm not alone anymore!
I had no idea how happy that would make me...
I felt blessed from the bottom of my heart...
I am allowed to be here... knowing that I do exist, made me feel relieved.
That's why it kills me to think about how it used to be. That pain is not usual...
It's a pitch black Hell.
If...
If I were still alone...

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