Feel Breath Move

This summer was filled with more happiness than some people have in an entire lifetime.

“Life is a series of pulls back and forth... A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. Most of us live somewhere in the middle. A wrestling match...Which side win? Love wins. Love always wins”
― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie

I'LL WAIT FOR YOU

I PROMISE I WILL BE HERE

BECAUSE I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE

In life, one of the things i'm afraid of is that it can be when someone you spend a lot of time with, someone you thought meant a lot to you, that when it comes to the point where you’re like “hey I’m here, I don’t feel so great” and that other person is just not there for you. You always thought that you’re something special to that someone, but then you realize maybe it was just wishful thinking that you’re special to them and you realize you’re not, then it really, really hurts.

Summerloves

I wanna marry you

Sleepless Nights

如果我連守著她的勇氣都沒有,

我有什麼資格說愛..                                      

Birthday Wishlist

Get Me These

Any one of em' will do

I have always shook with fright before human beings.
Unable as I was to feel the least particle of confidence in my ability to speak and act like a human being,
I kept my solitary agonies locked in my chest.
I kept my melancholy and my agitation hidden,
careful lest any trace should be left exposed.
I feigned an innocent optimism;
I gradually perfected myself in the role of the farcical eccentric
I don't know if I can stand it....
I’ve lost too many people I love to things beyond their control.....
I don’t know if I’d be able to handle knowing someone I care about had died due to something again....
My heart can’t take it.....
I don’t want to give up but I might have to soon....

Meet You Up In Heaven My Friend

Dear Friend,

We’ll meet again, I guarantee it. I believe we’re quite similar really. You were always hate free, you practically were the chillest gurl I’ve ever met. A whole bunch of people will miss you, including me. Why did it have to be you? I can’t imagine why God chose you, how could it have been your time? I guess life works mysteriously. The only good outcome is, you’re in a place(s) where there is no pain, drama, violence, & hate. I hope you travel well. You can now rest in peace . & wander free....

I try really hard to be a good human and not to do things that are intensely upsetting to people.

I feel like I probably fail pretty badly though, and I don’t know how to fix it cos I make the most efforts I can.

i got to the point when im sad but it doesnt feel any different
and i cant express my feelings because it feels fucking casual…

Isn’t it sad when you have been
hurt so much that you can say
“I’m used to it…”

“Dude! You just need to get your freaking shit together.
You know that, right?”

And then I realize, if I’m having that conversation with my mirror,

I’m worse off than I thought....

I used to sing all of the time to get my frustrations out,
to get rid of sadness,
to show how happy I was.
Now I rarely sing.
In fact, I can't remember the last time I sang something was.
I wonder why that is…

Oh, yeah.
Probably because I don't really know how to have emotions anymore....

18 November 2009... guess that was when i think i'm dead;

or i expired when she left the world...

And then i started rotting away at the core.

I started rotting and then i got mouldy;

and then i was just this mess for a while;

and then i was just there for a bit...

i wasn't rotting;

i wasn't mouldy;

i wasn't a mess;

i was just stuck and unaware....

And thats how i was for a while...

And sometimes it felt like i was ok and then other times it would feel wrong....

And then i started crumbling and now i'm falling apart even more....

I was already dead and that's why nothing matters

because its only a matter of time before i'm gone....

and we'll be together again...