In short, I feel lost and empty.
This has been going on for months and I don't know why I started feeling like this.
I don't feel any motivation in doing most things but I can still do it right. I wasn't like this before.
I don't like how I am now, and I tell myself to change.
My brain works but my body doesn't listen.
Everyday, before I go to bed, I feel that I haven't done anything worthwhile, unsatisfied.
I am a mess and confused.
I'm not suicidal, just can't find a way out.

I'm not saying I want to kill myself but some days I wonder "if I died, would I care?"